Did anybody else think today was Friday?
After months of unemployment, the five-day work week seems interminably long. (There were perks, see? If only it paid better.)
Things are moving along here at home. The only boxes left are in the garage and I'm half tempted to donate them somewhere...unopened and unpacked. What could be in them, I wonder. Clearly nothing vital. I'm trying to hang the last of the pictures...a sure sign we're staying for a while, even though I keep expecting someone to show up and ask us what were doing in their house. I still wake up and wonder where I am.
Every morning David kisses me goodbye and goes to secure our place on the rock. (Lindbergh's oyster bed has been heavily on my mind this week.) I sense his giddiness as he leaves. He is happy to be providing. Deliriously so.
My job is more complicated. Because the light in my new bedroom is golden rather than blue. The sun is coming in at a different angle, and I don't yet recognize the patterns it makes as it rises and crosses the south wall. To calm my fears, I rise and do what I know best. Home making. And perhaps my brilliant skills were never more needed. To take the uncertain and make it familiar. To take the unknown and make it recognizable. To take the difficult and make it a little easier with the simple rituals of daily life...food on the table, the same stone dishes being revealed by each successive bite, the smell of heat and starch as I line David's dress shirts along the end of my ironing board, the sheets and blankets whispering their old secrets as my darlings climb in bed, the circle we form on our knees at the end of day.
To take a house and make it home. (Good thing I'm amazing and stuff.)
In an effort to make it feel more like home, this week I did get the quilts hung.
The walls are telling me this is where I belong.
I wonder when I will believe them.